[Mood: Okay] [Mentally: Slowing down] [Physically: Still recovering] [State of mind: Drifted]
What a day. Felt as though I had been stabbed 3 times in the heart. No, I wasn't rejected 3 times by girls. But more of when I was told by people how weak I looked today.
As usual, had my Molecular Biology class in the morning. The lecturer was quite surprised to see me. I was feeling pretty good at that time, until halfway during the lesson, I felt a sharp pain in my stomach. No idea what it was, or if it was related to me being sick. But I supposed the way I expressed it in my face had gotten the lecturer's attention. At the end of the class, as I walked towards the door, the lecturer called out to me, "Azhar, are you falling apart?" I was shocked to be asked such a question, and replied, "No ma'am... I'll be fine in a couple of days." Only then did I realized how weak I was today. A girl in another group even commented that my FYP group are "weak" because 2 of us fell sick. I know that it won't be long before I'll bounce back.
The second stab came during Genomics and Proteomics. The lecturer actually came to me and offered me a massage!
Sheesh... Do I really look that tired? I thought to myself. I told him I just need a few days to compose myself.
The third one was a deadly one. It came direct from my FYP supervisor. He told my project leader, "Since you have a long weekend, you can take your time to do the PowerPoint presentation, and tell these two to rest." He pointed at me and my friend. I was like, "What do you mean I need a rest, sir?" "You look so tired, like never sleep for a few days... You need more sleep!" It sounded more like an order. And I could feel the pain.
After the FYP, I rushed to MLS to join in the Top 6 meeting. We were discussing on how to improve MLS in terms of system. It was a very fruitful discussion, and I look forward to starting Exco 32. Hopefully by then, I'll recover fully.
I am definitely not myself these few days. The Nurazhar who always busied himself with work, is now weak, and feeble. I have always thought I could do a lot of things in a short time. I wouldn't call it proud or cocky. More like self-confidence. But look at me now. Everything has changed in a span of only 3 days. But this dip in form will last for only a few more days. I assure you. The long weekend will allow me to recharge my batteries, and soon, I'll be back to my old self again.
And when that happens, nothing will stop me.
Unless I fall sick again.
Dang.