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in·fat·u·a·tion ( -f ch - sh n)
n.
1. A foolish, unreasoning, or extravagant passion or attraction.
2. An object of extravagant, short-lived passion.
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Infatuation. Something everyone will have at some point of their lives.
You mean there is no such thing as “Love at first sight”? Nah, of course not.
Love at first sight is what I would see as a very good example of infatuation.
Boy sees Girl for the first time. Boy does not know who Girl is, where Girl is from. Boy says, “I think I’m in love.”
Putting in the context of people, infatuation is where one has no knowledge of someone he/she desires, but he/she expresses desire to be with that person. It happens to everyone. It happened to me. It is what I would like to call natural instinct. Lolz.
So, define infatuation in practical terms. As follows:
1. Boy sees Girl. Boy’s knees turn to jelly.
2. Boy sees Girl. Boy becomes speechless. Even if he did speak, usually it will be of no sense.
3. Boy sees Girl. Boy starts telling his friends how much he likes Girl. Girl only realizes it after the whole school knows about it.
Don’t laugh. It can happen. The first time you see that someone, you tend to think that you would like to spend your time with that person. You do not know where that person lives, or how the person’s attitude is. You base your thoughts on purely the looks.
There are two ways to use this. One, you can use it to motivate yourself. Strive in the things you do. When you feel like you are down and out, you think of that person, and your energy zooms up like a rocket. Or two, you will just forget everything except that person. And that is what I call foolish.
From my past experiences, I see infatuation as something which can reduce your mental capacity. You will not be your usual self in front of that person. Instead, you will be on your best behaviour, or at least you hope that it will be seen as best behaviour from that person’s perspective. Seriously, I don’t see anything in that. *shrugs*
Infatuation can also be seen as a “short period of excitement over different people”. I don’t know if I put it correctly or not.
Boy sees Girl A. Boy likes Girl A. Girl B walks past. Boy likes Girl B now. Boy sees Girl C from a distance. Boy shifts his “likeness” to Girl C.
What do you call that again? *ponders* Oh yeah. Crushes. All the time. Coming to think of it, an infatuation is a crush. Someone you like, but someone you know (or at least think) you don’t have a chance with. Infatuation can never develop into something, not unless you are making an effort. And if you are successful, well, maybe that’s when we go into love.
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love (l v)
n.
1. A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.
2. An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
3. A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
4. An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.
5.
a. A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language.
b. The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love.
6. Sports. A zero score in tennis.
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Love. A four letter word everyone yearns. A feeling which can bring people into a far away land of desires and endless possibilities. A feeling which can give you strength when it is strong, yet sucks the life out of you when it is gone.
But if you think you don’t have any, well, think again. You would have never been born into this world without your parents. And that’s why it is very important that you put your parents on top of your “Love List”. Parents always put their hopes and dreams on their children. It’s even tougher if you are the first child. My dad had always wanted a boy for his first child, so that he can lead the family. And… He got me. Someone who I might say have the leadership qualities of my mum, and also the soft but strict mindset of my dad.
The question “Have you ever been in love?” is music to some, but dreaded to many. Or vice versa. I don’t know. Some people like to talk about it when they are in love, some people keep it down. What is love anyway?
To tell you honestly, I don’t really know. I am not really that experienced in this field to even talk about it. Yet, I do help some of my friends who have such problems. “Give her some time…” or “You have to trust him.” are some of the phrases I use in my advice. So why advice when I’m not even fit to talk about it?
Since secondary school, I look at this “love” thing as an outsider. I observe it, I deduce it, and came up with several “happy” scenarios. Then I filter out the factors of such scenarios, and see what my friends are lacking in. To my surprise, it does work most of the time.
My first love came a few months before starting poly life. And boy, was it great. Finally got my first girlfriend, a laptop. Subsequently, more came along.
I have seen a lot of people pairing up and breaking up. Mostly during my secondary school days. Especially for this friend of mine. I don’t remember how many times she went through it, but most of the time, I provided a listening ear. Sometimes I wonder, what causes people to break up? If they paired up in the first place, they must have had something common between them. This mysterious cause varies between people.
I won’t dwell on it much since I know I’m not that qualified. Maybe I will be soon, maybe not. But until then, I don’t really mind.
Because I still have my laptop.